First purge ever

About ten minutes ago, I purged for the first time. I have tried to for SO long but it never worked. Today I really ruined a day that was supposed to be a fasting day, and I felt horrible. Too full, very sick. So I drank 3 glasses of ice water and then I sorta...I don't know how to explain it, swallowed my finger? It worked. So weird, because I hate throwing up. When I was a kid I would do anything to avoid throwing up when I was sick. I feel amazing! My stomach doesn't hurt anymore, it's empty, I feel like I was given a shot of caffeine. I feel so powerful and in control- I love it! On one hand I know that it is a horrible thing to get into....but I feel so great about it.